Sometimes i get so anxious to do or to have something that I can’t even think or act straight.
I looked up the definition of Anxiety. Anxiety is intense, excessive worry or fear about everyday situations.
When I was in High School, I had no idea what anxiety was. I had really low self esteem, but i don’t think i was ever really anxious. My friends and I were too busy getting high and exploring other calming options. (but that’s another story. ) College came around and I would hear my friends talk about anxiety attacks. I still had no clue what they were.
Have you heard the word “late bloomer” ? That was me. I did not come across any serious anxiety until I turned 24 years old and life seemed to just hit me all at once!
I had been single for a while after my high school relationship, so i had no relational worries or whatever came along with that. I just stayed pretty busy doing hair and thinking of ways to build my business. Yes, I was in my own little world, just me and God, but let me tell you; when life hits you, it hits hard.
At 24, I gained a new relationship that I had no idea to receive due to past traumas. on top of that, I was to be turning 25 years soon and at the time I was working with a middle school Alternative Learning Program. So you can see, stress on top of stress. Since I was still living with my mom and my sisters and nieces, everything just got overwhelming. I had no outlets, and on top of that I shared a room. I just wanted to be alone!
Life became too hard! I’ve always heard that life can be challenging, but i never knew what that truly meant. At some points, I was ready to die; to give up. Lord take me now! I’m glad he didn’t!!
But, what God wanted from me wasn’t my complaints and my whining and my worries, he wanted my Faith. He wanted my Trust. It was like getting ready to go into a big surgery and the doctor saying, “Trust me, you will be fine, and this will all be over soon.”
But my trust didn’t happen over night. And, quite frankly, I’m still learning and have to demand my thoughts into silence when I feel my heart racing out of fear.
I am 25 years old now. And we all know the ideal goals of a 25 year old right? I supposed to be married now, I supposed to have my own house, and my business supposed to have taken off by now. And all the seeds that I’ve planted should have been harvested!
But, let me tell you a secret about our Father (the Revealer of Mysteries). He will let you go through the fire so you can come out refined as gold. He will let you suffer, until you produce the fruit that he is looking for. The fruit of the Spirit is Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self Control.
Today, I want to focus on Patience. Patience is the exact opposite of Anxiety. Patience is the ability and capacity to accept and tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset.
STEPS TO PEACE
In this season of your life, I want you to
take a deep breath …
close your eyes,…
slow down those thoughts and that heart beat….
and say , “Lord….I TRUST YOU.’ Because what’s worth having is worth waiting for.
I pray this helps someone today. 🙂 Thanks for listening